HAPPY

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
just can’t let go
just trying to play my role
slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re the same
Just different faces
different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
my feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So any turns that I cant see
I’ll count a stranger on this road
But dont say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

am i ready?

alhamdulillah....dlm bankruptcy after declare gaji kena potong, Allah open another door for me..yes i just got the feel tat its time but sumtimes i did have doubt am i ready for it..umrah sahaja its not such big deal some ppl might sed tat but to me its BIG..to set ur feet there..it make me feel so small to stand at such a holy place mecca mukaramah..Allah i pray for my strength to be able to complete my duty in my life toward u..

my mum was so excited..well, i cried quietly in my heart to see her so happy about it..gosh, i dunno how to describe tat feeling..when ur loves ones is happy because of u, the felling is like u own the world..i dunno how to sed it..whenever i remember it few tears will slipped down...i think everybody know tat kind of feeling..fuly satisfaction i wud say..hahha

ada juga tanya my friends the girls i called them, dena Jk and lat..boleh ke aku ni?..they say yes, i can..i just feel so humble, so dirty..macam x caya je Allah nk trima x doa aku nanti..dah la xcited sebab nk tangkap gambar and singgah jordan..then clothes, wat shud i wear, tutup aurat but nk look vogue at the same time..mcm mn tu?...nauzubillah, i have tat kind of feel..mcm nk p bercuti2 msia..tat wat make me feel guilty..huhu..will Allah accept my prayers and doa..hopefully, ill try my best to set my niat on the right path..jgn nk ingat jalan-jalan and shopping...hehe..but im soo excited actually and scared juga..

jodoh..haha..tat was put on top list in my doa's list...mama and mak remind me so many times..i believe i just havent met him yet..may Allah show me the way..the truth is im a bit choosy..nk yg hensem2 je bak kata mak..haha...tp yg x hensem tp x baik pun x guna juga mak..hahha...tat y nk hensem and baik tu...tu la yg susah nk cari mak oii..im 27 years old, prime time haha..lat and dena alwaz remind me on tis..im alredi old..i dunno im just happy wit my single life now..i dun feel like i wan to get married..bahayes..hahha

glued to it

chuno
star falling from the sky
pasta

i am currently watching this series every week...my new addiction after QSD
1.pasta
2.star falling from the sky
3.chuno

glowing and puffy?

tat wat my labmates told me...wat r u wearing...berseri2..they thot im getting married which is absolutely incorrect..bf pun xda...nak kawin dgn sapa?..haha...yg pasti my cousin who is geeting married next month..as usual, a bit mad today sbb when ppl access my google account i hv to reaccess again my acc..the prob is alwaz forget my acc password..i think i shud i hibernate n close my laptop next time..tat y dah lama x update blog..its fun actually to have a blog but when this kind of remeh temeh thing happen u just lazy to write..

again, back to topic..my face...so far the diff tat i made from usual routine is...i din take rice..i mean not totally skipped it..just avoiding it, mebbe just 1 scoop in 1 wk..i replaced it wit bread, wholegrain or wheat bran (which still confusing me) but after bit research and inet surfing, wholegrain is better...and i drink dilmah green tea from ceylon with mint..i love to sip it every morning in lab while checking my mail..hot tea in cold room..and oso enjoying my healthy breakfast..omg i miss my nasi lemak...its tough to decline the temptation especially when i at home during weekend..deymm its hard..

but i lazy to go jog like my routine last year, i can shed few pound easily if i stick to exercising..seriously..it really worked last time..i almost look 6-7 kilos last year..now..just starting slowly on weekend wit mommy...God, pls give me strength..totally victory if i can lose 10 kgs..perhaps..back in bintulu mid year will help me..hopefully

money

dont messed up wit my salary, pleaseee...a slight change cause a dramatically changes in my budget and it HUGEEEEEEEEE change..

QUEEN SEON DUK FINALE

Finaly, it comes to the end. Last week was the finale of queen seon duk drama aired on MBC. I could keep track on it each episode every week via viikii..thanks so much to QSD subbers, love u guys for ur effort in providing the best for QSD diehard fans..mucho gracias..

It is a sad ending wit Bidam died and im soo sad watched Bidam try to reach seon duk before he died and calling her name..my deokman...if not bcoz of those greedy ppl, mebbe end up to b together..so sad..btw its a great drama..personaly recommended to ppl who love period drama but bear it bcoz it have 66 episodes....haha..oO..@@..lol morover, the cast lined up wit many hotzz guys ( i posted some of the attaractive heroes)..one of the reason i can bear till 66, honestly, and totally fall out for Kim Alcheon or So Alcheon (he changed his name, but i prefer bcoz his royal status)...:P

wish upon a star

tis morning, stuck at home again since yesterday bawa datuks n datins makan kenduri and after tat we had small family gathering over there and im stucked wit them..nvm i did enjoyed it....merapatkan sillaturrahim la katakan..haha..and today, i din open shop..the task goes to LGL hopefully, she can make it. I need to go to georgian bek later on, register asrama for my sis. While checking the emails tis morning, i buka malaysia hari ini and they have estranged tis morning..i din know that andy is a muslim...azwin andy..his voice is deep and husky wit a little slang in his BM..haha..face woooo totally good loking..he got a full package..gosh..as lat hv sed to me before..kalo dapat ni..sumpah aku x cari lain..haha..shud i forgot my alcheon, well..im in doubt now..haha...my alcheon Vs andy